Then He Left.

She was drunk.
Suddenly you came from nowhere.I was in a shock.I hadn't seen you for days.
I had to take care of her.No time to stare at you like an idiot.That's my name I guess.
Sitting there, you didn't even look.
Then I left.And came back.You weren't there.
Went to "our place".I was standing at the door, just for a minute.
Oh, that was you again.I could hear the sound of your tiny motorcycle.
I'm begging for one more glance.Before you leave.For ever.
My girls were sitting inside, getting drunk.
I just wanted to say...''He left.''
But none would hear.

I'm becoming insane,insane,insane...

"Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain
Before I change again...
Remind me the story that I won't get insane..."

Just suffering from delusions...

Ain't she cute?

"When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry


You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special


But I'm a creep,I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here


I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul


I want you to notice...
when I'm not around.
You're so fuckin' special,
I wish I was special..."


She was lying on her bed.
Crying like a baby.
She said :
" I'm not perfect.I wish I was good enough so everybody would love me."

A year later her quest to perfection begun.
Struggling to fit in.
Fighting to be one of them.
Bleeding for approval.
Suffering for beauty.

Another year passed.She had it all.
At least she thought she did.
Blonde, tiny, cute.
Goal achieved.
Until she decided that she wanted more.
She just ruined everything.

Oh, she was so desperate...

"I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul


I want you to notice...
when I'm not around."

For once again,
the same song was playing.
And she was crying on her bed...

A glance is enough.

I had almost forgotten you.How foolish have I been?
You are an obsession.You are a drug.
I am obsessed.Addicted to you.
Two hours had gone by so fast.
"I am better of without you" I whispered.
Suddenly, from nowhere, you were standing there.
With this quirky grin painted on your face.
Everything was so blurry.But how did I recognise you so easily in a moment ?
Dizzy, I was a step before collapsing.
I looked you in the eyes.
You looked into mine.
I could hear my heart beating no matter how loud the music was.
A few moments turned into an eternity.
Oh boy,
how easy was it for you to ruin my universe with
just a glance?

So...Hey people!
After this short and silly introduction, let me introduce properly myself.
I'm D, a 16 year old girl from a European country(Wow.This was soo revealing.)
Well...What could I say about me?
I'm moody.So moody that I'd need tones of lithium.(and as you can see sometimes a drama queen)
They say I'm funny.
Pleasant.
Gentle.
Generous.
Cheerful.
Clever at times.
Emotional.
Sensitive.
Self-destructive.
Silly.
Manipulative.
Vain.

Anyway.Nobody really cares.
I just hope you'll enjoy my blog entries. :)